一個很有仙氣的女孩:                                                     
                                                                              
          在寫這封行信時, 我甚至連你的名字都不知道, 但這並不影響              
                                                                              
      我寫信的念頭. 我並不知你的地址, 所以這封信是否能寄出, 還尚              
                                                                              
      未可知. 你一定很莫名其妙, 想知道這 "無聊男子" 是誰? 我自知              
                                                                              
      自己配不上你, 這個 "配" 字是我在電視連戲劇裏常看到的. 一個              
                                                                              
      成天無所事事的放牛班學生, 實在不應該在此聯考將近的關頭上,               
                                                                              
      寫這封信給你, 但這情愫積久了, 藏在心中總是不好. 文筆簡陋,祈             
                                                                              
      勿見笑.                                                                 
                                                                              
                                                                              
      蓉:                                                                     
                                                                              
          你一定很奇怪, 我怎會查到你的名字? 這很簡單 班上一位「弟             
                                                                              
      兄」的馬子正好在你班上, 於是就....或許你罵我窺人隱私, 其實              
                                                                              
      我非故意。你知道的嘛! 這些放牛的「牧童」( 我一向如此自稱) ,             
                                                                              
      除了「虧馬子」這個「雅嗜」外, 還有一個劣習便是充當偵探, 專探            
                                                                              
      人隱密。他才高八斗的書呆子們, 欲追你的不知凡幾, 牧童我頗曉自            
                                                                              
      己底細, 論課業, 那是瞎子吃水餃─心裏有數;論品行, 那是豆芽炒            
                                                                              
      菲菜─亂七八糟。但沒關係, 我有拉丁族的樂觀, 也有著楚留香的瀟            
                                                                              
      灑, 一切盡力而「追」, 何況我握有你的地址呢?                             


 


發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 二                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:50:47 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
 牧童:                                                                       
                                                                              
         如果你第二封信是威脅,我是有證據可以反駁的。你說什麼一個和           
                                                                              
      我「往來甚密」的男友,聽了簡直噁心!還有什麼一大堆追我的書呆子?        
                                                                              
      我不知道你是誰,更不希望你來煩我,雖然你還蠻有趣。我認為你應該          
                                                                              
      知道,現在正值最後衝刺階段,這段期間裏,「心如止水」是我的座右          
                                                                              
      銘。不要以為這封信代表了我將接受你,浪費了這時間的目的,只是想          
                                                                              
      要明白告訴你,不要在試圖闖入我平靜的生活。                              
                                                                              
                                                                              
                                                                              
                                                                              
                                                                              
發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion                        
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 三                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:50:49 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
蓉:                                                                          
                                                                              
          你錯了,徹徹底底地錯了。「人生得意須盡歡,莫使金樽空對月。」        
                                                                              
      你正值花樣年華,卻浪費在書本上,我知道我這種邏輯對你是不通的。與        
                                                                              
      其說大道理,不如讓你去看這繽紛的季節,老拘泥在分數的象牙塔中,實        
                                                                              
      在窒息了屬於青春的光彩。應該在這繽紛的季節,伸出你的雙手,放開你        
                                                                              
      的心懷,去傾訴詩意的雨季,去輕撫那自然的真諦。看吧!那雲在動,動        
                                                                              
      得那麼輕快、瀟灑,彷彿在笑你以前的沉鬱。人生有的時候要像雲一般,        
                                                                              
      不可眷念那過去,世間功名利祿皆是空,真正智慧的人應像雲一般,沒有        
                                                                              
      匆匆,沒有嘆息,只有掬取,應在這繽紛的季節,多掬取一些,美好時光        
                                                                              
      像雲逝,一縱即無跡,當數學老子在上面發表「政見」(因為不知所云)        
                                                                              
      時,我總喜歡作詞,寫來或許你要笑,但我仍然願意忍痛接受你的笑,像        
                                                                              
      那屋上的提琴手。這闕詞是無題的:「玫瑰凋樓旁,繁沒兩秋間;已是晚        
                                                                              
      秋獨酌月,更見淚與愁。無意挽飄零,花落自有處,落花成意秋成苦,竟        
                                                                              
      是相思苦。」贈與你此詞的目的無它,只是看你那纖麗的俏影,隱沒在考        
                                                                              
      卷的陰影,心中便宛如刀割。請相信一個牧童真摯的感情,即使我不是「        
                                                                              
      刺鳥」的愚神父有他那純潔的愛;我只願像一顆小星星,以自己的犧牲換        
                                                                              
      來你那月亮般的皎潔。最後,還有一點必須說明:請你不要懷疑此封信的        
                                                                              
      作者。雖然我只是一個放牛班,但我對國文卻情有獨鍾,從小學道現在,        
                                                                              
      我只有國文課本是全本都翻開過的;另外,書、電影是我的消遣,所以,        
                                                                              
      「克拉斯」要較普通的放牛生高一點!                                      
                                                                              



發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 四                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:50:51 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
      牧童:                                                                  
                                                                              
          今天考完模擬考,一回到家中,看到了你的信,心中感覺錯綜複雜。或      
                                                                              
      許是有一點感動,或許是共鳴。剛才考完試,同學們嘰嘰喳楂地討論答案,      
                                                                              
      但我只是坐在自己的座位上,既不想考卷,也不想去看電影,只想把心靜下      
                                                                              
      來,靜思這一切,究竟是為了什麼?我們像是一隻隻風箏.在空中飄啊飄,      
                                                                              
      看上去好像是在遨遊四方,實際上,控制飛高飛低,飛遠飛近的一根線,卻      
                                                                              
      緊緊纏在另一隻大手上。國三下,說好聽點,是一群羽翼將豐的飛鴻,嘗試      
                                                                              
      飛過久居三年的山頭,奔向另一個新的世界,但說的難聽些,卻是一排排的      
                                                                              
      罪人,等著玩「美女與野獸」的遊戲,有的人因累積的努力而一躍登龍門,      
                                                                              
      有的人卻因聯考制度的桎梏而犧牲,無疑的,這是一個殘酷的遊戲。我既有      
                                                                              
      點羡慕你,又有點同情你,正如你所說的,這是一個繽紛的季節,「落花水      
                                                                              
      面皆文章」,這文章卻只有你們這群牧童才能欣賞。儘管如此,我認為你們      
                                                                              
      有些人還是只在浪擲美好時光,抽煙、撞球、玩電動玩具,像一點一滴的鹽      
                                                                              
      酸,腐蝕著青春。但我相信你是與眾不同的,而且你應懂得我為何會同情你      
                                                                              
      ,因為-真正國民九年義務教育受益的只是我們,而你們卻被忽略了。只要      
                                                                              
      中國的教育制度一天不改,學子們就一天受著不平等的教育機會,算是我替      
                                                                              
      你們的呼聲吧!或許上次曾真的認識你吧!我寫了那封充滿「恨意」的信回      
                                                                              
      你,十分抱歉。或許你會認為我很隨便,有男孩來信我便回信,其實不然,      
                                                                              
      正如你所說,學校中很多「無聊男子」都常邀我郊遊、看電影,或打電話找      
                                                                              
      我聊天,甚至有每天早上等在我家路旁,跟在我後面去上學。他們自命不凡      
                                                                              
      ,自認為是才子,是英雄,但他們的行徑如瓊瑤小說的男主角,但我可不是      
                                                                              
      那不食人間煙火的女主角。你看過小野的小說嗎?有一篇給我印象很深,有      
                                                                              
      一個女孩,交了一個筆友,叫蘇魯支,他們彼此交換著最深刻的情感和戀結      
                                                                              
      ,但那個叫飄飄的女孩,卻在魚雁往返之中,被蘇魯支的言行支配了,他失      
                                                                              
      戀了,她安慰了他;他結婚了,他卻慟不如死,無疑的,蘇魯支化成了她的      
                                                                              
      影子,伴著她走過一生。我不願你像蘇魯支地控制著我的一切,但我又好寂      
                                                                              
      寞,多麼期盼有一人來和我互通心曲,而你闖入了我的世界,你不是功課很      
                                                                              
      好,但你卻比那些「高材生」坦率、自然多了!我們倆做個筆友好嗎?但有      
                                                                              
      時功課忙,回信晚了,可不要怪罪。                                        
                                                                              
      在做筆友之前,你是否可自我介紹一番呢?名字、年齡、愛好..我總      
                                                                              
      覺得你已洞窺了我的一切,而我對你一無所知,那感覺令我心慌。              
                                                                              
      另外,你勸我莫在書中浪費青春,還作了一闕「警世詞」給我,前面我      
                                                                              
      已經說過,升學制度固然對你們不公平,但真正的勇士是:在不公平的比賽      
                                                                              
      中,以完美無缺的精神取得失敗。那天我騎經自立橋回家,從自立橋鳥瞰雄      
                                                                              
      中,好美!古色古香的建築和著現代化的教堂,交織著一股新舊潮流會合的      
                                                                              
      澎拜,紅花綠葉是不缺的,百年古木也顯出他的生生不息,不愧為南部第一      
                                                                              
      學府,我當然不是強迫你要去考雄中,只是想告訴你:把握人生的方法不只      
                                                                              
      是享樂而已,書中一樣能留給你這一季的縯紛!只剩兩個月了,我希望好好      
                                                                              
      拼一番,高中或許還有希望!                                              
                                                                              


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