頭又痛了起來,連書都看不下了,明天還有社會科第三冊及數學            
                                                                              
      第二冊的考試,去吧!我的書!看,這酒真的使我瀟灑了。太白兄好            
                                                                              
      酒,縱飲吟詩,天地日月,無不詠而成韻;蕭峰兄好酒,豪杯論武,            
                                                                              
      南俠北傑,無不懍而成慕。可惜自己只是個小小女子,拋頭露面總是            
                                                                              
      不行,只求在狹小的環境中,一切適意而行便滿足了,活了這十多年            
                                                                              
      ,心中還是喜歡喜劇,像傲慢與偏見的結局不是很好嗎?何必要像那            
                                                                              
      白先勇的小說,總給人一種淡淡的憂鬱感呢?或許便是人生在世,不            
                                                                              
      遂意的時候總是比如意時多吧?                                            
                                                                              
          好想看看你。看了你的夢境與幻想,我真的有『身臨其境』的感            
                                                                              
      覺。尤其你的大學之夢,由令我嚮往,我想真的有點喜歡你了,還幫            
                                                                              
      我素描臉部,太美了!但你的夢境就不禁令我不寒而慄了,相信我,            
                                                                              
      假使我是你夢中的女主角,我一定會留住腳步的......你真的是那樣            
                                                                              
      坦白,我有幸和你搭起這座心橋,那和不讓我知道你是誰?讓我看看            
                                                                              
      你吧!這是我一個小小的願望。                                            
                                                                              



發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 十                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:51:05 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
      蓉:                                                                     
                                                                              
          我不知道該說什麼才好,一個文靜秀麗的女孩子也會喝醉了?初            
                                                                              
      接到信時,我覺得實在太有趣了,我真想看看妳去買酒的窘態和醉酒            
                                                                              
      後的雙頰酡紅,那一定像是一顆熟透了的紅蘋果,那一定更添妳的嫵            
                                                                              
      媚。你知道嗎?我好想跟你對飲,然後再吟詩頌詞,這兩方面我們都            
                                                                              
      是旗鼓相當,太棒了!但話說回來,我是否已成了那個混蛋蘇魯文,            
                                                                              
      從信中支配了這個小可愛的蓉呢?喝酒總不是好的,對健康尤其不佳            
                                                                              
      ,何況那也會損了你的形象,一個煙、酒皆沾的女孩子,誰敢碰呢?            
                                                                              
      只由於我嗜酒如命,卻把你帶壞,實為罪過罪過!從一個自私的角度            
                                                                              
      來說,偶而放縱一下,卻也是不錯的。我這個人是『自然』學派的,            
                                                                              
      一切順其自然,什麼形象,什麼階級都是虛偽的。但無可奈何的,人            
                                                                              
      在虛偽的死角矛盾了十幾年,至今尚不敢勇於脫掉那層虛偽的外表,            
                                                                              
      讓真實的內在坦然出來。或許妳和我一樣,是天生縱酒瀟灑的,你卻            
                                                                              
      被社會加諸一種清純的束縛,在大部分的時間,妳必須努力去維護這            
                                                                              
      個『軀體』,只有在這個暢快的季節,得以依天性而行。                      
                                                                              
          妳切莫有罪惡感,必須知道:一切習俗皆是狂妄無知的人們硬加            
                                                                              
      在自然之上,現在妳終於擺脫這些煩人的教條,雖只是短暫的,卻也            
                                                                              
      值得再浮上三大白了。                                                    
                                                                              
          最近又要搬家了。由於父親職務上的關係,我們成了『游牧民族』          
                                                                              
      。我本來以為還只是在高雄,卻不料竟是要搬到臺北,昨天我執拗地鬧          
                                                                              
      了一天,執意要留在高雄,等聯考考完再到臺北,父親看我近來似乎真          
                                                                              
      的用功了,也就答應了。母親卻怕我惹事生非,其實我知道的,她是捨          
                                                                              
      不得離開我,自出生到現在,我還沒跟她分離過三天以上的,也難怪她          
                                                                              
      不願了。最後我編了一條自認最妙的理由:適應新環境期間會影響功課          
                                                                              
      。母親才勉為其難地答應了,不過看得出,她是算準了我考不上此地的          
                                                                              
      任何高中,妳知道我為何要留在高雄嗎?無他,只為了想看看妳,而且          
                                                                              
      我也不願離妳太遠。等我努力考上高中後,我便可賴在此地不走了,這          
                                                                              
      便是我的如意算盤了!不過父母要我先去認識環境,暫時會離開高雄幾          
                                                                              
      天,這幾天大概不會回信了,所以妳好好準備功課吧!不用再寫信給我          
                                                                              
      了。(這僅為暫時,可別斷了音訊)                                        
                                                                              
          下禮拜就是畢業典禮了,昨天禮拜六,學校舉行預演畢業典禮,悄          
                                                                              
      悄地回去看了一下,碰巧遇到一位昔日的弟兄,他略帶不屑地跟我說我          
                                                                              
      領不到畢業證書,哼,有什麼了不起!待我考上高中,誰稀罕那國中的          
                                                                              
      畢業證書呢?躲在一旁,聽他們在頒什麼市長獎、議長獎‧‧‧‧什麼          
                                                                              
      一大堆鬼勞子長獎,聽了半天,才終於聽到妳的名字。什麼混蛋老師嘛          
                                                                              
      !才區長獎,真為妳不滿,不過沒看到妳,心中的悵然若失,便如同羅          
                                                                              
      馬假期的結尾,癡情記者看著公主飄然離去,獨自立於大堂,不忍離去          
                                                                              
      的惆悵不已!                                                            
                                                                              
           想到要離開妳一段時日,真是不捨得。                                 
                                                                              



發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 十一                                               
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:51:07 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
      牧童:                                                                  
                                                                              
          今天我暈倒了。                                                      
                                                                              
          那天大醉一場後,隔天就覺得身體不適,也不知為了什麼。那天            
                                                                              
      預演的時候,肚子裡就似乎悶著血腥,同時也覺得疲倦不已,於是向            
                                                                              
      老師請了假回家,母親要帶我去檢查檢查,我執意不肯。                      
                                                                              
          在身心皆處不適的情況下度過兩天,第三天上學時,勉力騎過自            
                                                                              
      立橋後,彷彿覺得心臟快停了,頭也昏眩不止,你絕無法暸解那恐怖            
                                                                              
      景象,似乎在那一段時間,自己已在神的召蒙下,赴往西方極樂。              
                                                                              
          到了學校,一切的咬牙支撐卻都終止了,手腳軟了,天地間的萬            
                                                                              
      物都相對地失去了意義,一陣血腥直衝上喉間劇痛從我瞳孔中射出,            
                                                                              
      終於鮮血衝口而出,隨著昏眩,我也已倒在地上‧‧‧‧‧                    
                                                                              
          斷斷續續地感覺到訓導主任的急呼聲‧‧‧被扶了起來,送上車            
                                                                              
      ‧‧‧‧母親的啜泣聲‧‧‧‧許多針扎入的痛楚‧‧‧‧醫生護士            
                                                                              
      們的匆匆蹤影‧‧‧‧而這一些對我絲毫無意義,我一直恍恍惚惚地            
                                                                              
      想著你和我並肩躺在如茵的草上,蝶舞亂,花影紛。一時和樂融洽,            
                                                                              
      輕聲細語在耳邊輕繫。忽然你提議要吟詩詞,並笑著要我先開始,彷            
                                                                              
      彿是冥冥安排的,毫不加思索地便吟:『問世間,情是何物,直教人            
                                                                              
      生死相許。天南地北雙飛客,老翅幾回寒暑。歡樂趣,離別苦,是中            
                                                                              
      更有癡兒女。君應有語,渺萬里層雲,千山暮景,隻影為誰去。』你            
                                                                              
      也自然而然地接吟下去:『橫汾路,寂寞當年簫鼓。荒野依舊平楚,            
                                                                              
      招魂楚些何差及,山鬼自啼風雨。天也妒,未信與,鶯兒燕子皆黃土            
                                                                              
      。千秋萬古,為留待騷人,狂歌痛飲,來訪雁丘處。』剎那間,天地            
                                                                              
      變得嚴肅起來,空氣猛然冷凝,不可觸及。兩人相對無語‧‧‧‧景            
                                                                              
      象又轉到一碧至深的湖上,我在湖上泛著小舟,你在湖旁為我唱歌,            
                                                                              
      鮮美燦然的蓮花綻開微笑,雲日極為和諧,為我們編織了最佳背景。            
                                                                              
      驀然間,大地忽然晦暗起來,狂風夾著暴雨,向我狂捲過來,船翻了            
                                                                              
      ,我也落入湖水,湖水本是溫和的,此時卻變得冷澈起來,寒意直襲            
                                                                              
      上來。那些蓮花也向我聚集過來,原來清麗的她們,竟都成了一副猙            
                                                                              
      獰的模樣,向我張牙舞爪,我嚇的哭不出來,只是大叫,我想向你求            
                                                                              
      救,卻無望地瞧起湖畔列出一排一排的欄杆,把竭力嘶喊的你隔絕在            
                                                                              
      外。湖水越來越碧綠,而我只是向下沉,我伸著雙手,高聲呼喊你的            
                                                                              
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