發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 五                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:50:53 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
      蓉:                                                                    
                                                                              
          我很感激你對我的關心,為了不負你所望,我已經準備好好打一場仗了      
                                                                              
      !在你這封信以前,我總認為這是沒有希望的仗,雖然老師們都說我是班上      
                                                                              
      惟一有希望考上高中的人。但現在我改觀了,你信前半段對聯考的不滿,激      
                                                                              
      起了我想征服聯考的欲望,後半段的鼓勵,更是煽起了我鬥志的火苗。現在      
                                                                              
      我不再去學校了,去那裏只是在浪費生命,雖然這樣再也見不到你,但那只      
                                                                              
      是表面的你,如今你已做我筆友了(為此我高興得兩餐飯吃不下),我將可      
                                                                              
      接觸到你的豐富內涵,那我又何必去追求浮華的外表呢?極可能領不到畢業      
                                                                              
      證書,但那也不重要,畢竟那只是混來的,我沒有到學校去,你或許可以猜      
                                                                              
      到我去那裏呢?每天一早,便坐在圖書館的花圃前背單字,直到圖書館開門      
                                                                              
      為止,同「業」倒是不少,尤其女生特別多,但我已克制自己不去招惹其他      
                                                                              
     「馬子」,而專心於書本,只因我的心已有了你,那便夠了。                   
                                                                              
          這段在圖書館「掙扎」的期間內,我常上去六樓看看課外書籍,藉以休      
                                                                              
      息一下。上次我看完了一本「悲慘世界」,我頗覺得自己便是那男主角尚萬      
                                                                              
      近,他偷了一對銀燭台,這對銀燭台的主人便是一個寬容他多次的主教,為      
                                                                              
      此他懺悔了一輩子,並以無限的悔意化為對世人的補償。我自己難道不是這      
                                                                              
      樣嗎?一、二年級的我,除了偶而會看一些正經的書外,其他時間都浪費在      
                                                                              
      打球、打電動玩具、看漫畫書上,蹺課、記過更是無以計之,除了吸煙(我      
                                                                              
      總覺得那玩意只會束縛自己)外,其他不良素行,幾乎都嘗試過了。一開始      
                                                                              
      之所以寫信給你,無非是一總無聊透頂的念頭-想向同學誇耀一番這樣一個      
                                                                              
      功課好、又漂亮的妞兒!但收到你的信後,我徹底醒悟了。我立志要學那悔      
                                                                              
      過的尚萬近,但我自知力量微薄,濟世是不成的(何況我也沒有犯了侵害世      
                                                                              
      人的罪),我只有利用時間,你知道嗎?我把你當成是那個使我覺悟的主教!    
                                                                              
          你要我自我介紹一番,這....總之是不成的,因為我決不比別人多認識      
                                                                              
      自己一點的,有時當我沉迷於享樂之間,忽然會有一種震慄來到我心中,那      
                                                                              
      是罪惡感。儘管如此,卻又抵擋不住它們的吸引力,心中便如有一個結,盤      
                                                                              
      根糾錯。我的姓名自己並不喜歡,只因不是自己要的。年齡和你一樣,倘若      
                                                                              
      同日生那就更棒了。愛好太多了,但在我寂寞時,總又覺得嗜好太少。說了      
                                                                              
      半天,還是沒有介紹自己,總歸一句話,我是一個由那可詛咒的老天操縱的      
                                                                              
      玩偶,和一群莫名其妙原子所組成的生物體。                                
                                                                              
          親愛的!你知道,我會每天期待你的回音。                              
                                                                              



發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 六                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:50:56 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
      蓉:                                                                    
                                                                              
          我已等不及你的回信了,我若不寫信給你,傾訴所有積塞在我心中的        
                                                                              
      感覺,我將會讀不下書。就在我寄出上封信的隔天,為了去看看你,我特        
                                                                              
      地去上學了。一進校門,就被管理仔碰個正著,或許你不曉得,像我們這        
                                                                              
      種特B班的學生,管理仔總是認識的。他要我跟他到訓導處的一個房間,        
                                                                              
      那個「刑房」我挺熟的。一進門,他「拍啦」就給了我一巴掌,「說!這        
                                                                              
      幾天死到那裏去了?」我撫著燒紅的臉頰,一言不發,雙眼瞪著他,今天        
                                                                              
      他也竟是「氣頭十足」,一拳又朝我揮過來了,我躲開了,哼!我有必          
                                                                              
      要接受這般的冤打嗎?甭說打架惹事了,這幾天我連玻璃都不曾打破一塊。      
                                                                              
      要不是和你通信以來,脾氣已收斂不少,我當場就跟「翻」了,即使不動        
                                                                              
      拳頭,也要把他祖宗十八代一一「操」完。「不說是吧?一胚仔子,就會        
                                                                              
      藏匕首在抽屜?你是老幾啊?我知道你是要打架而藏的,那為什麼一堆流        
                                                                              
      氓來了,你又做縮頭烏龜來了?怕?怕還要找別人打架?累得班上同學無        
                                                                              
      辜挨揍,連一位制止的老師,也被劃了一道....」我奪門而出,直奔教室。      
                                                                              
      同學們瞪著我,我沒有理會,拖了「憨大呆仔」出教室,我非要問個明白        
                                                                              
      不可。待「憨大呆仔」用他那顛顛倒倒,全無條理的語法,把事情原委說        
                                                                              
      了一次後,我呆了。不顧我的書包和放在裏面的一本英文自修,我飛奔出        
                                                                              
      了校門,爛糾察的哨聲和多少車輛的喇叭,充塞著我茫然的心,飛奔,飛        
                                                                              
      奔....                                                              
                                                                              
          我不知我走了多遠,直到腳酸為止。我累了,腳累了,心也累了。坐        
                                                                              
      在安全島上,一朵小黃花向我挺立著,彷彿在笑我被騙了,被騙了,被騙        
                                                                              
      了,被騙了....我天旋地轉起來,是的,我早就該知道,你如此品學兼優        
                                                                              
      ,那麼漂亮,怎會看上我這個放牛的牧童?我只不過是你釣到的一個凱子        
                                                                              
      罷了,好向你朋友,同學吹噓,說你如何如何「有媚力」!最後為了擺脫        
                                                                              
      我,又叫你的男朋友帶人來修理我。但是你不知道我是誰,卻查到了我是        
                                                                              
      那一班(這實在太簡單了,只要查查那班在X月X日起,有一個同學忽然        
                                                                              
      不到學校了。....),一看我不在,便遷怒他人,並留言要我小心,我把        
                                                                              
      你當成女神,你卻....賤!賤!賤!                                           
                                                                              
          那天我就這樣晃蕩了一天,直到八點多,才帶著兩罐啤酒回家,鎖在        
                                                                              
      房裏,看著你給我的信,一面喝著酒,酒漬染黃了你的信,酒漬和著淚.        
                                                                              
      ...。                                                                
                                                                              
          半夜裏,我獨自起來了,酒也醒,頭也異常清晰,悄悄地上了陽台,        
                                                                              
      吾心已靜,無所謂的洩恨只不過多拖累一人而已。我絕不怪你,而且再也        
                                                                              
      不會去煩你。那把匕首是你男朋友來威脅我的,明天我會把匕首插在他的        
                                                                              
      桌上,一切都過去了,我一樣要考高中,要讀書,這念頭是你啟示我的,        
                                                                              
      致一句最後的謝意。                                                      
                                                                              
          我永遠是喜歡你的,不管你曾經給我多大傷害。                          
                                                                              
                                                                              


發信人: Betty@sexstory (我...咬妳喔...), 信區: emotion
標  題: 轉貼[ 蓉與牧童 ] : 七                                                 
發信站: 情色文學 BBS     (Sun Jul 30 22:50:58 1995)                           
轉信站: sexstory                                                              
                                                                              
      牧童:                                                                  
                                                                              
          此時天方初曙,日是未見的。沁沁之風滾滾襲來,我以單薄之身來          
                                                                              
      獨飲這孤涼,初晨的三民公園,三兩老人依歌起舞,或是拖條狗,提個          
                                                                              
      鳥籠,其悠閒令人神往。今天收到你的信,我只能搖搖頭,嘆口氣罷了,        
                                                                              
      你看過茶花女嗎?瑪格麗特的情何其誠也,她的意何其摯也,但可笑的          
                                                                              
      亞芒卻是個沙文主義者,只要她一刻做出她所不願,而被環境所逼之事          
                                                                              
      ,他就把他當蕩婦,是寡廉薄恥,且盡一切之能事去侮辱她、打擊她,          
                                                                              
      但高尚的茶花女,卻只以歡笑來接受他的羞辱,只為了這證明他仍愛她          
                                                                              
      ,我雖不是高貴如茶花女之流,但我卻肯原諒,你所罵我的一切。釣凱          
                                                                              
      子?有媚力?吹噓?賤?你可知道我心碎了,我原本慶興救了一個垂懸          
                                                                              
      於絕崖之人,卻想不到....唉!上天可知我心清涼一片,即使一泓清水          
                                                                              
      如沁,依舊傷感成冰。                                                    
                                                                              
         我相信你會靜下心來,聽我解釋。我從不知道他-一個A班的學生          
                                                                              
      ,會做出這種事來。他是我國小五、六年級的同學,我知道他很喜歡我          
                                                                              
      ,我卻始終只把他當作同學,那天收到你的信,目睹你再度奮發而起,          
                                                                              
      心中歡愉難以遏止,那天放學回家,在途中巧遇這位同學,畢竟是同學          
                                                                              
      嗎!不聊聊天總覺不好意思。這一聊卻惹出禍來了,我把和你交筆友的          
                                                                              
      事及你受我鼓勵而做的事,源源本本地告訴了他,那時只見他臉上閃過          
                                                                              
      一絲不豫,並未覺如何不妥之處,唉!心悅口就快,替你招致如此多的          
                                                                              
      麻煩,實在愧意萬千。                                                    
                                                                              
         


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